What do you do when you wake up and all your energy is low? What do you do when you know you are acting spoilt and unhappy because things you have been working hard at & expecting positive news/feedback hasn’t come? Knowing fully well you have a lot to be thankful for but this singular thing has captured your entire being. How do you deal with continuous, unrelenting, and sometimes insensitive demands on your time, mind, money, attention, emotion & more when you don’t have more or are not in the frame of mind to give? What do you do when the people you have given your heart & soul to then ask for your immortality (because I don’t know what else to give after soul ) or the classic, “what have you done for me”?
I woke on Monday this week with all these emotions and looking for where to run to if possible. Everyone sees you and imagine you are perfect, you have no problems. In fact, you are the only solution to their problem., God, I only asked you to give me a good life and see paparazzi God of mine, gave me a life many will die for but silly me, here complaining, whining, being petulant, and wanting to run away. Didn’t Jonah run? What was the end of that? What problems can I possibly have that can compare to Job? What sacrifices have I been asked that come close to the demand of Abraham sacrificing Issac? Imagine Jesus at the last supper with one man willing to kill for him one side and another planning to set him up to be killed on another side of the table? Didn’t God promise a feast for me in front of my enemies? Didn’t David slay Goliath with a slingshot to then be taken down by his own wandering eyes which led him down a series of valleys with Bathsheba and Uriah and then eventually a mountain with Solomon? Did Moses see promised land after all the work? Didn’t Esther break all barriers? Who am I to be entitled to? So Also what is my problem? I realized quickly I was being ungrateful in my anticipation and entitlement. The gift of thinking I have a problem itself is a gift. So I got up & went to do God’s work.
I spent the last two days going to children & schools we sponsor & work with. From regular schools to all-inclusive schools for differently-abled. We have talent in this country for real. And what a reminder it was. I am blessed & lucky. I saw beautiful & happy people whom despite all life has thrown at them, still radiating gratitude & glorifying HIM. What is my problem biko? Devil, you lie. You are a better liar. Whatever I am waiting for will come to me if it is mine. I work 20-hour days, I honor my parents, I do my best for my loved ones, I am my brother’s keeper to the best of my abilities, I don’t covet what is not mine. I and Jealousy are not friends. I am not perfect. I am flawed not broken. I serve my God. He is a faithful God. If it is mine, it will happen because His covenant is if I do my part, He will do his. Like my friend Edgar, Duke of Somolu will say “Mbok, let me continue to my part before God vex say I no serious “
Dr Akintoye Akindele Chairman Platform Capital